It's Monday, the website is up, I'm completely exhausted, but here I sit watching another gorgeous California sunset and feeling better than I have in quite some time. I've always told myself that I don't like to work hard, but the truth is, I just don't like hard work without direction. This week has left me sleep deprived, skipping showers, forgetting to eat, scribbling in a notebook that's become a new appendage, spending more time glued to my computer for the sake of productivity than ever before, AND I HAVE LOVED EVERY SECOND OF IT!
Several months ago, I was walking home from a friend's place through the streets of Paris after deciding to forego a night time metro ride. No matter what happened to me during my time there, I never ceased to enjoy a proper stroll through the City of Light. Paris is not without its charm and beauty, and in my opinion, best appreciated while the city sleeps and the streets are your own. This particular walk was the first time I had ventured that far on foot since being out of a cast and I was feeling good. As my feet found a calm rhythm against the cobblestoned streets, I began to think about all of the music I loved, how it has influenced me and why exposure to opera seemed a losing battle in the world. I was blessed with a wonderfully eclectic circle of people in my life, and aside from those I knew in the opera business, most of my friends and family hardly had an ounce of understanding for this art form I had dedicated myself to most of my life. I would rarely get to have a discussion with anyone about it, and felt that if they really wanted to know more they would ask. However, that night I thought: perhaps it is up to me to share this beautiful music in a way that no one has ventured before? I had become so stuck in "the way things are done" approach that there seemed to be no other option but to give up, until now. I sat with the thoughts that had come to me on my walk for about a week before I shared them with anyone. I wanted to be sure this wasn't just another idea I would lose interest in after a while, but once I started talking about it and putting things down on paper, it seemed to flow as naturally as water. I was excited in a way I had never been before, so I bought a domain name for the website and started to pool my resources, but as it turned out, life still had some lessons to teach me before I would find myself moving any further with this project.
Months later, after arriving in California, I had left behind most of my belongings, a man I thought I was in love with, and several difficult situations that had tested the very fiber of my being. Feeling like the biggest loser in the world, I had no idea how to begin picking up the pieces of the shattered picture my life had become. I was still clinging to a relationship that had been dysfunctional for some time, but kept my focus there so as to avoid my own lack of direction. It's funny how when you find yourself in a situation you don't want to be in, life will decide to change it for you, if you lack the gumption to change it yourself. Three weeks after leaving France, my then boyfriend broke up with me in an email. Yes, an email. As devastated as I felt on the surface, I felt a huge relief of anxiety within. I really had a clean slate. For the first time I felt a desire for real change, not just a new city, haircut or philanthropic gesture to a gym I would never use, but the kind that required internal dedication and discipline. While I've only been at it a few weeks, I feel a tremendous shift and know this is only the beginning.
Opera Revolution is the name of my vision. I will fight tooth and nail to drag opera kicking and screaming out of the dark ages and into a light that can be seen by anyone. It is my passion to do whatever it takes to bridge the gaps between the musical genres that have been created in the world. The website will host all of the building blocks to reach my goal along the way, and for now that first step is a weekly podcast; researched, writtten, recorded and produced by yours truly. I am beginning the series with an in depth look at Verdi's La Traviata, and promise to do my best to bring modern, accessible examples that will make it an entertaining experience. There will be a new podcast every Sunday which will be much shorter than the introductory one I posted yesterday. I look forward to settling into a rhythm with them as time goes on, and adding new layers to the site, which might eventually include a little singing of my own! I will post links of resources for operatic entertainment and information that won't cost you an arm and a leg or too much time to get into. Follow me along on the blog as I document Opera Revolution's progress. I look forward to sharing the difficulties and triumphs, as I am sure there will be plenty of stories to tell. Looking this challenge in the eye is one of the most exciting things I can imagine.
I want to say a big thank you to everyone who has taken the time to visit the site and given me their feedback. It is absolutely a work in progress and will continue to be updated and tweaked until it is exactly where I want it to be.